Welcome to MakatangTala. Tala's vent for all her pent-up emotions. In this lil space on the web she divulges her secrets that are unknown in the real world. Please bear with her as she whines, rants, rambles about her daily life. All she asks is a little respect from you.
Tala is still alive... yeah, I just dunno for how long. Hehe, it has been 2 weeks of no updates and that's because I was buried under piles and piles of exams, projects, homework... homework and guess what?!
Moooooooorrreee....homework.
Oh, that reminds me of what to blog.
Well, last week, we did a report about philippine coral reefs for our ecology subject. My groupmates and I wanted to make it interesting and "bongga" so we decided to dress up as characters from "little mermaid". Haha!
and I had to play Ariel. It was really funny 'cause we couldn't find a red wig so I just wore a curly one that my groupmate found. While I was reporting though, the wig kept falling off and I couldn't help laughing so the class was laughing, too. When I couldn't put it back anymore I decided to remove it . My other groupmate played Ursula because she reported the coral reef destruction part. She was really great 'coz she really seemed scary with her "mangkukulam" wig that i gave her. After the report we arranged a little game similar to the Amazing Race. Since the each pitstop had questions about coral reefs, we named it "The Amazing Reef" .
All in all, the report was a success.
But after that, I had to endure sleepless nights of studying for the biochem report and biochem exam. That's why right now I really have dark big circles around my eyes that people are starting to stare at me as if they're thinking I'm on drugs... hehe. Well, I'm not! This is what you get when you're stressed! Haha! Anyway, even if things are really busy right now and the to-do list is getting longer and longer, I'll still try my very best to finish the layout I'm planning to put up this month {this current one is getting really boring... }.
So that's about it, I have to get right back to my boring life. Tata!
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[post not entirely in english... tag-lish, hehe...]
Annyong Aseo!
Finally, it's the weekends already! After all the killer exams I had, I'm still alive! Haha!
Anway, I got tagged by Irish. I have to list 10 weird things about me...
hhhmmm....
Okay...
here it goes...
1] I like eating pancit canton (ung lucky me...) especially the calamansi flavor... but with rice.
Is that weird? hehe... noodles na nga, may rice pa...
2] When I was in grade 4, I had this weird allergy. Mga pantal sa likod ko... as in... ang dami. [sorry if i'm grossing you out!]. Ayun, dinala ko sa east ave ksi un na ung pinakamalapit. Tpos dinala ko dun sa mga dermatologist, pinakita ko ung likod ko... tpos yun. Kung ano-ano na ung sinasabi nila. Allergy nga. Tapos tinitingnan talaga nila ung likod ko kasi ung mga pantal formed like a tree.... a pine tree... a fir... ewan! Ayun, pti nga ung name ng allergy ko, prang gnun... waah! at ang kainis pa, sbi nung isang derma sa isa pa, "ui, take a picture of her back, magandang study yan... bka manalo ka pa..." or sumthing like that... GRRRR! gawin ba akong specimen! guinea pig! ayun, because of utter embarassment, at pagkainis lalo, di na ko bumalik after two weeks even if they told me to. I just followed the prescription they gave me. Good thing it disappeared.
3] I can try to speak only less than twenty words the whole day. Oo, kasi nung asa dorm pa ako nung freshie pa ako. Pag inis ako sa room mates ko di ko talaga sila kikibuin. O kaya pwede namang di ako inis, ayaw ko lang magsalita kasi wala ako sa mood. Bihira lang naman 'to. Hehe, yun nga lang... ka-bad breath, sympre... magtu-toothbrush naman ako...
4] Like Irish, I stare at nothingness most of the time. Often, I'm not aware of it. Bigla na lang ako magugulat pag tinawag ako.
5] Antukin ako, sobra. I sleep inside the fx when I go to school or go home, especially when whole day ako andun. Dati nakatulog ako ng almost 15 hours... When I have nuthin' tuh-do during my vacant hours at school, I hang out at the library and sleep.
6] Dati kumakain ako ng spaghetti na walang sauce at grated cheese lang ang nakalagay. Kumakain rin ako ng may sauce, pro pag tinopak ayun ayaw ko maglagay ng sauce. Ngayon, di ko na ginagawa un, pagnaubusan n lang ng sauce,hehe.
7] I'm such a worrywart. I easily panic and I also tend to overthink things. Pessimistic nga raw ako sabi ng nanay ko. pero para sa akin, kelangan may plan of action kaagad when worse comes to worst. Pero oftentimes, unprepared din naman ako. kaya.. ayun, maski ako nawi-weirduhan sa sarili.
8] I have 2 siblings and I'm the eldest, pro between me and my sister parang ako pa ung pangalawa, in terms of physical and sometimes mental thinking.
9] I dunno if this is weird but my room mates back in baguio think that it is. Ksi almost everyday, I tell them about my dreams. sabi nila "bat gnun? parati mong natatandaan ung mga panaginip mo? ako hindi?".
10] ung real name ko is weird... ops... [i won't tell yeh that, ]. Actually, I'm proud of my name. Nung sinearch ko sa internet kung may katulad ako, mga 2 o tatlo lang ata at ibang countries pa. Ewan ko rin kung bakit pareho kami kasi ginawa lang naman ng nanay ko ung pangalan ko after sa mismong place of birth ko. AT weird dahil after a few years after my birth, nagkaroon ng isang organization sa ibang bansa na ang pangalan ay name ko! gaya-gaya! at nag-karoon na tuloy sya ng direct translation sa language nila. Grrr ako nauna!!!
So that's about it... hhmm... I'm tagging...
no one...
sorry... i got only a few link exchanges... some of which are already dead sites (oh, that reminds me... i have to do a linkie and affie clean-up).
sigee... i nees to sleep! its been a really hectic week... Zzzzzzzzzz.....
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There's this song that keeps playing on my mind.It started when the very first day of the so-called
LOVE month, February, stepped in.
I don't know if you're familiar with it but it's this song by Sam Milby, the one that goes...
Oh why don't you smile my only star, Shine on baby, smile my only star...
Haha! yeah, that was corny, I know. But hey! everyone's got their own share of cheesiness sometimes. Only I 've got lots of it, hehe.
So why is this song so stuck in my mind? Well, it was exactly a year ago (when I was still in beloved Baguio) when this song actually came out. It was my fave song back then and I remember singing it to the top of my lungs everytime I was alone in the dorm room [ha! Singing's a hidden talent, so I intend to keep it that way, HIDDEN]. It was LSS that won't go away because everywhere I went that time, people just kept playing that same song.
s
So, I was walking out of my botany class then and was humming this song. The weather was great. I could remember seeing the sky so
blue, so perfect, with big puffy white clouds. Then, up the stairs I went, singing the song enough for my friend, who was with me, to hear. But she didn't seem to notice though. The walkway was a bit crowded but I didn't mind 'cause my attention was still focused at the sky. But as I was nearing the chorus of the song, I looked ahead of me and I saw
him. There he was, finding his way through a bunch of people who was blocking the end of the walkway. For a second I thought I completely lost my sense of hearing because all the chattering around me suddenly died out. But then, I realized that I could still hear myself singing the song as if my mouth, my voice had a mind of it's own. I felt like I was walking on clouds just like the fluffy ones I was looking at awhile ago. At the moment my arm brushed against his, I was already singing
oh why don't you smile, my only star.... That all transpired in what seemed to be the longest three seconds of my life. Right after the crucial three seconds ended, every sound came rushing back to my eardrums and I was feeling the hard ground again. But a gush of extreme happiness went over me after realizing what just happened. My friend who was with me didn't really notice everything that happened for the past few seconds. I decided to keep that encounter that was giving me great elation to myself but somehow the positive vibes, I suddenly had, emanated and she was now looking at me as if questioning why I had a big silly smile on my face. I quickly returned it with a look that said, "what?" and we went on walking again.
That day, those seconds is forever memmed. That's why its the one memory that crosses my mind everytime I hear that song because it reminds me of those three seconds last year. It's just sad that I'm not in Baguio anymore and even if I was, I still won't be able to see
him again 'cause he's now in diliman. As I come to think of it, nothing really special happened. I simply saw him. But for me everthing seemed perfect then, enough for me to be completely elated.
Laugh all you want now. I admit it's a lot cheesy. I don't even know why I'm blogging this. I guess I just wanted to write something in lieu of the upcoming Heart's Day. Perhaps, I just wanted to let out this feeling that's come over me again.
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*Sniff**cough*oohh... thanks for the advices guys, I'm sorry I just can't help blogging. I guess I'm just really stubborn. Sorry... hehe... but I promised my self not to stay more that 15 minutes in the pc. I guess that would be okay.
Anyway, yes... my title says it all. I'm having a cold right now, that's probably why I was feeling really bad last thursday. Yesterday, my throat was really aching and I had a report! Good thing, I still managed to deliver it. I drank some medicine awhile ago, and lots and lots of water and also calamansi juice so I really hope I'll be fine already. I have to! I still have major exams this week! So I'll be going now. I have to rest for a while and go back to study... boring noh?
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It's about 12 noon right now and I'm at home blogging this thing. I'm supposed to be in school today but well...
Awhile ago, I got out of bed feeling really tired despite the fact that I just woke up. While I was walking on the way to the jeepney stop, I was feeling kinda weird. It was as if I was floating... nope, not that kind of feeling when you bumped into your crush...no, not that. And when I was already on the jeep, my hands were really cold and my forehead was sweating. Thinking that it would go away, I told my self that I should still go to school. But when I got into the room, I felt really dizzy and nauseaous and my tummy hurt alot. Like I couldn't stand anymore. It didn't even take me fifteen minutes in the school because I decided to go home already. I didn't want to pass out in the room. Besides I won't be able to concentrate anyway if I was feeling that way.
And here I am, still feeling kinda sick, It must have been the late nights/early morning sleep these past few days or could've been that lunch I had in the cafeteria. I was planning to attend my afternoon class today after I take a nap and drink medicine. But then, I'm still feeling dizzy and I feel really burnt-out. So why am I blogging? Hehe, I dunno... I just wanted to blog... I love blogging... But right now, I'm feeling kinda dizzy again, so I have to go now and rest and eat too...and study again, exams,quiz and report tomorrow so I really have to get well. bye guys.
PS. thanks for the concern, all those who commented in my last post. (n_n)
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Oh yes, that's why I'm back to blog another boring day of my life. I woke up today with really puffy eyes from all the crying i did last night. Still, I went to school sat at the back of the room like I always do and stared at my professor talk about this distibution analysis thing... I can hardly understand what she was talking about because my mind was obviously flying somewhere else. It was hard for me to concentrate especially after last night. I tried to focus but I gave up and ended up doodling in my notebook, something I don't really do, thinking that I'll just read the hand-out. After my class, I rode the fx and headed home. I must've been really tired coz I fell asleep and was woken up by the driver and this other passenger who thought that I was going to go down at SMnorth. It was bit embarassing hehe but it's okay that happens to everyone...
When I got home I dressed into my house clothes and decided to read my lectures for my exam this friday. And damn are they long! I was really close to tears when I saw the ppt's (powerpoint) in the cd! After I got through one-third of the thing, my eyes grew tired so I took a nap. But the nap took about 2 1/2 hours! Haay... oh, did i mention that after the exam on friday I have a major report in ethnobot? Gosh! Then exams on my 2 major subjects next week plus homeworks...
hooo... I should be going now... I still have to read the rest... wish me luck...
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something sad...
Again... i say... we had to say goodbye to alot of people this month. After the merry holidays, my realtives went back to the states. My cousins too, who we get to see
rarely. It's like we get to see each other every 6-10 years only...
imagine.... And as if this is the month when leaving is such a trend, another one has to leave the house for abroad... my dad. He's been to Saudi, Oman, and Africa... this time it's Dubai. He's leaving tomorrow noon and I can't even send him off at the airport because I have a class. I wish I can absent but then it's only once a week so if I do... then I'm really gonna miss a lot. But I'll miss my Dad too. *sigh* I only knew about it just the other day. Although I knew he was planning to go there, I was thinking that he'd probably leave after his birthday. Now he has to celebrate it again far away.
something funny...
and embarassing! OMG! I slipped down the stairs! and that happened awhile ago in school!
Kristel and I were going down the stairs when my foot slipped, I tried to balance my self but when I stepped on the 2nd landing I slipped again and I landed on my butt! Wahahaha! I knew Kristel tried to save me but her efforts were in vain. I sat there face on my hands laughing really hard while trying to hide myself from the onlookers. I looked behind me for half a sec to confirm if the people saw what happened and indeed a few were looking at me wondering... Fatsy helped me up and we were all laughing. My! It was really embarassing...
something new...
yes... right now I'm working on a new layout for this site! It's actually the first time I'm changing layouts. Apparently, this current layout is already 4 months old and it's already getting boring for me and I suppose for you guys too... So watch out for the new layout, kei? I won't promise any date...
That's all for now... my eyes are getting really tired.... but I still have to cook dinner. Tata!
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It's a sunny sunday morning and here i am taking a beauty rest [while blogging?] haha! Right now my hair's all greasy from the coconut oil. I wrapped it in a towel so it wouldn't get to my face. It's like home hot-oil treatment, hehe. I wanted to go to the spa but I don't have the moolah... haay... Anyway, I know I told you guys about me getting my own domain and stuff... but i've been really busy with schoolwork. Besides, considering my fab state of finances, I can't really afford to buy one since I have to save every single coin I have, hehe... maybe this summer...(hopefully...).
Oh! I have to go wash my hair now... see you guys in a bit... au revoir!
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Ola! Tala's here again!
*smile*smile*.
hehe, you might be wondering why I'm such in a good mood today. Not the usual gloomy me... Well, that's because I passed my first Biochem long exam!
Isn't that great?! Look! Look!
It's not a really high grade but remembering the exam grades I had back in my dreadful orgchem class, this one's actually a
passing grade. Besides I really am not into chemistry... I'd rather do physics or dissecting...
Okay enough of that...*stomache grumbling* I'm really starving... gotta grab that salad my mom made...
See you guys tomorrow... bye!
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I'm really bored... Actually there's lots to do but I want to take a break for a while so my mind won't short-circuit. Or maybe I just am procrastinating... Anway, I was surfin the net awhile ago and stumbled upon this survey. I just wanted to answer it so here it is.
1. What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before?
Ha! I went wall climbing and sliding (cable rope)!
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions for 2006?
I don't even remember having one for that year! *tsk*tsk* i'm horrible...
3. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?
a laptop...
3. Which countries did you visit in 2006?
Wala... shame on me...
4. Did you fall for someone last year?
hhmm... let me see... fall? nope... 'cause i was already falling...
5. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Think...think... I learned more about life...
6. What was your biggest failure?
biggest failure... uhmmm... i failed to realize that things can get better...
7. What was the best thing you bought in 2006?
I dunno...
8. What would you not like to take with you in 2007?
regrets... and not-so-good memories...
9. What would you like to hold close to you while you move into 2007?
the lessons i've learned...and precious memories...
10. Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?
pretty much the same...
11. What do you wish you'd done more of in 2006?
more risk-takings... more appreciation... more acceptance...
12. What do you wish you'd done less of?
sleeping... regretting... sulking...
13. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
not really hate... i just don't care about that person anymore...
14. Who kept you sane in 2007?
friends! angeli and cor! if not for them... I would have really lost my mind...
but most of all, GOD.
15. What are you looking forward in 2007?
a more adventurous me... a more optimistic outlook... a livelier me! a trip to another country... anywhere but here!
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I've been thinking about things lately. How better things are going on right now with my college life. Of course, nothing compares to the times when I was in baguio but compared to the very first semester I had here in Manila, I can really say that things are better. I know I'll here people say, "I told you so," or "It's just a matter of adjusting," but still I can't help thinking what if I just stayed there? What if I never decided to transfer? Yes... full of what-if's.
And now here I am, stuck to a place that I have to stand up to because it was I who said that I'd be okay here. It was I who chose to be here. And so I'm in a point of no return. I can't blame anyone but me and there's no turning back. I may sound overdramatic but it really isn't easy when you're stuck with people who can do everything at the same time. When you feel like you don't really belong because you're so out of their range. It's hard to fit in when everyone's got a really tight group and they really make you feel unwelcome. Worst, they think that you're the one who's the snob. My mom would always tell me that trying to fit in doesn't really matter as long as you concentrate with school. I know, but sometimes it goes down to who you know....
Now that I'm back,things are way better now. Maybe because I don't get to see the people who are really exasperating anymore.
Maybe because I know that no matter how hard I try I cannot really please everyone and make all of them accept and appreciate me. That's how reality is. Accepting things has somehow lightened the burden i've been keeping and somehow kept me from too much regretting.
Right now, I'm trying to be really patient and humble, most of of all be very optimistic. My mom says I'm a lot better than before because I'm not grumpy and cranky anymore. I don't cry and frown alot anymore. No more mood swings.
But I still have to work on it. I'm not perfect...
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Okay... something very emo again...
Sobrang nakakalungkot...[translation: so sad!] We had to say goodbye to a lot of persons this month...to my grandparents went back to the States already last Monday and to my cousins who flew back to the states too just yesterday.... 
I couldn't stop crying when we sent them off yesterday morning that I decided not to attend my morning classes. And then that afternoon when I went to school to attend my last class, someone asked me why my eyelids were bloated.
The class was fun, but I felt like somethng was really missing.
Even though everyone was having fun in the activity... I felt really weird like I couldn't really laugh... [am I being too overdramatic??? sorry but that's how I am...] so I'm goin on... When I got home... the house was really dark unlike when everyone was here before... and it was sooo.... sooo.... quiet. That's why I cried again when I went into my room and my sister was asking "Umiiyak ka pa rin?" [you're still crying?] Yeah I said. Between me and my sis, I'm the one who's very iyakin [emotional/crybaby].
I know im being way too cheesy but the only thing made me look forward to this semester was the thought that vacation would be really fun coz the whole family's here...[well, not really the whole but a lot...] now that they're gone... it's like... im not interested about this semester anymore... I know I know.... this feeling's gonna pass... but I just had to spill it out for now... I know everythings gonna be okay after a while... I hope everything's gonna be fine for them... coz That's what I'm actually worried about...
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Warning: could be really pathetic, emo, too dramatic... whatever...
I can't believe that they think of me (us) like that. ganun na siguro ako kasamang anak....Malas* daw, born loser... They don't know how hurt I am, now, after they said that. I really can't believe it... that they could tell such a thing... after all these years... I could really understand it if they just got really mad but it's the third time they've told me those things...I've been trying to understand but it just seems too much. I owe them a lot, I know... but now it's like they're wishing you were never really born... or that you are not part of the family. It's just too painful...What else am I gonna feel??? I want to run away right now... I want to go somewhere... where I can take all of these off my mind. It's just too much for me... but where else can I go? I don't have a job so I can't really rent a place. Most of friends live really far away and the others are really busy with their own lives and I don't wanna be a burden for them... I don't know anyone who I can talk to about it... I never really share things like this... aboutfamily matters... especially about parents... so know I'm just sharing it all to you... so sorry if you find this stuff really pathetic. I just have to let it out somehow...
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2007! Grabeh, bilis talaga ng oras. This New Year's celebration is one of the best I ever had. I'm so happy I got to spend it with my cousins and grandparents who I haven't seen for a really long time. Hehe...
At dahil nabanggit ko na nga, andito kasi yung mga cousins ko from the states na halos 6 yrs ko pa huling nakita. Ayun, Sobrang saya! Yun nga lang, I don't really know if they enjoy being with me, hehe. I'm just quiet most of the time because that's how I am. I always find it hard expressing myself... I'm not a party animal too... But that doesn't mean I dont like to party or that I don't want to be with them... I love being with them!
I really, really, really missed them alot! It's just that I sometimes feel that I'm too boring for them... oo nga.... i know... it's true... hehe.... But I'd try to do things I'm not used to because I know it's not everyday or every month that I get to see them. Nakakainis nga at di na ko nag-aaral sa Baguio, eh di sana masasamahan ko sila sa Baguio... Haay...Worse, it's exam week... so I can't even come bring them to the airport to say goodbye... same w/ my grandpa and grandma... Haay...
Nakakapagod talaga itong holiday season... ngayon ko lang na-experience isto pero I'm happy kasi fulfilling naman yung pakiramdam kapag nakapaghahanda ka sa mga taong mahal mo. Minsan stressful at nakakainis, pero at the end of the day mas masaya ka at nagkita-kita kayo uli after a really long time. I know that it's gonna take a long time before we get to see one another again that's why I'm really sad when I think about next week... Ay naku... Sorry at emotional na naman ako... drama talaga. Hehe, sige na nga at alis n ko. Buh-bye!
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PS All my blog entries for November are now at the archives page. =)
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femme. christian. worth $1,616,520. beach lover. frustrated figure skater.
likes pink green orange blue purple white. very much into arts and crafts. spends time making poems. likes it when the sun shines and the rain falls together. luvs the afternoon sun. asian
